Wish You Were Here

Hubby dear is away tonight. Its the first night since we were married that hes had to go away for work. Its not nice.

DH is due to go away on tour at the end of the year, and part of our family planning is that he would like to be here for the birth. Of course I want this too, but I would also like him to be here during the pregnancy. This means we have only about 3 cycles in which it would be ideal for me to conceive- for the due date to be when he is still in the country. We would start trying now, but I am in the probationary period of a new job, and would rather wait until next month, so that I'm not having my employment review pretending that I'm not pregnant, but just have a Twix addiction.

If it happens that I don't fall in our ideal window, then I would have liked a hormone free option to stop me falling when the due date would mean that DH is away......the condom and the diaphragm don't seem to be the right options. We just don't seem to be getting along with them.

There seems to be so much information out there about ovulation dates, LH surges, tests etc. I feel a little like I'm preparing for some kind of scientific experiment. As the non hormonal contraceptive don't seem to have worked, I was trying to figure out if I was still fertile - to AVOID getting pregnant. DH is feeling a little neglected, so I have my fingers crossed that I wasn't still in my fertile time yesterday - or I will be pregnant too early.

Its situations like this where it would be really nice to know that hes not going to get whipped away to Afghanistan. To allow us to plan, conceive, give birth and allow him to be here for it all, plus the early months of any Littlun that we produce. I think we are both in denial that we will both lose out somewhere, but that's just the reality of being a military family.